i somehow feel kind of guilty about the way i act and behave in the past.ok maybe i still do now but not as much as before.funny how i am always so quick to judge people.honestly i feel a little bad about it right now.it is wierd as i would always come up with a whole bunch of excuses so i would not need to be seen with them or near them.it was only recently when i just realised that hey some people who look the most distraught of them all can in fact be one of the nicest people whom you can ever meet.i dont know.i guess this is just something which i really need to change in.come to think of it.it really sounds pretty bad.owells.church was the bomb diggidy today.the leaders treated us lunch.damn how often do we actually get such actually but yea.talk about sweet?they call us the light of the world.the ambassadors of speedlight.but honestly i really dont think i am fit to be one somehow.i see so many flaws in myself that i dont think i can really be that much of a role model.i often wonder to myself.why am i always seemingly the black sheep whenever it comes to church?i seriously try my best to be toned down and not to anger others.honest